Me Too

When I woke up today I saw a Facebook post from my sister in law (she has been away for a couple of weeks and I didn't realize she was now back at home and online again), I posted a short comment to welcome her home without understanding what the "Me Too" that she had posted actually meant. As I scrolled through my Facebook I saw more and more wome...
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Thankful

This past weekend was Canadian Thanksgiving. I haven't put much thought into holidays over the last couple of years because I was living across the country. This year, I'm home, back in Ontario and although I didn't spend this Thanksgiving with my family this year, I'm grateful to be home. I'm grateful to be close enough to everyone that I'm within...
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Six Years

Today is October 3rd. For most people, today is just a normal day. A day like any other. People go to work, go shopping, do normal things. Today is not a normal day for me. Today is a reminder of a loss that even now, six years later, I'm still not recovered from. Six years ago today Nikita passed away in my arms. Yeah for most people the loss of a...
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Losing My Purpose

I've been back in Ontario about a month now. As you know I haven't posted anything on this blog since returning. I've barely posted on social media. I haven't lost interest or decided consciously to walk away, I've just lost the energy to do it.   ​ When I first got back to Ontario my life became very chaotic, very quickly. The plan I had in p...
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Staying the same

​People want things to stay the same but they can't….. It's a simple truth of life. We are all afraid of things changing. We all have this fear that the world will fall apart if it changes. How will we manage that? How can we hold on if we don't know what's coming?  The truth is everything in life changes. It changes because it has too. That's...
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2016 A Year In Review

Wow, it's hard to believe that 2016 is already over. I feel like the older I get the faster it goes by. Time becomes a larger part of who I am and what I value, as it seems to shrink with each coming year. I've found myself over the last year thinking "Wow, you really haven't accomplished a whole lot Crystal" which, of course, is not correct. But w...
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The Downside To Living Across The Country

I've spent my whole life living close enough to my family and friends, that when something comes up I can always be there. Normally a few hours or so drive away, but nothing that required any real planning in order to drop what was going on and rush to someone's side if needed. Hell, I remember when my little sister (who is actually my cousin but t...
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It’s NOT All Cupcakes and Sprinkles

Social media has given us this amazing tool to share our lives with friends from anywhere in the world. We no longer have to sit and wait for weeks as snail mail travels from one continent to another to check in with the people we care about. However, it's also given us a false sense of reality. If you check out friends Instagram accounts you would...
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Edmonton seems Entitled

As a girl who grew up in Southern Ontario, in a family that had a farm, I learned from a very young age what a work ethic was. My parents and grandparents taught me the importance of always giving 110%. They made sure I understood that when you're being paid to do a job, you do that job to the best of your abilities because if you don't, someone el...
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An Opportunity, A Change In Plans, Surgery and A Move.

The last couple of weeks has been slightly chaotic for me. This year I've tried to be open to any and every opportunity that comes my way. An experience is an experience, good, bad or ugly, it will teach you something. So I've made it a point to be as open to as many experiences as I possibly can. A few weeks ago when an opportunity to go look at a...
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Perception is Reality, Except that it’s Not.

This morning my day started out with an argument that I couldn't wrap my head around until I realized that it had nothing to do with me at all. The argument wasn't about me and my actions, it was about the other person's perception of my intent when I took those actions (which for anyone who has ever taken a psychology class knows, is a hard thing ...
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Why Can’t I Have Balloons and A Fancy Dinner With Gifts?

I was chatting with a friend the other day who had just posted comments online to an article she had recently read entitled ""Why Don't Women Celebrate Their Travel Accomplishments The Way They Do Engagements?" Her comments and thoughts on this article were actually perfectly in line with what I was feeling. So I read the article myself and felt a ...
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Home is NOT a Pin on a Map

So I've been back in Canada a little more than a week now (don't worry I have lots of blog posts about Ireland to post still), but since I've been home I've felt sort of lost. Not that I don't know where to go or what I want, but lost in the sense of this place doesn't feel the same to me anymore. Most people feel a sense relief when they get home ...
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36 Hours in Transit

I can't even wrap my head around that number. I have now been officially awake for 35 hours and I'm not even in Dublin yet. I feel like my head is about to explode. I've been able to spend my time wisely. I visited with some people, I've been writing blog posts. It has been a productive 35 hours so far. I started this blog post on my way to Ireland...
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I Think I Need Copious Amounts Of Sleep

Is it possible to be so exhausted that you think you can function properly and not actually be functioning properly at all??? I think this is exactly what's happening to me right now. I love to travel, always have. However, this is the first time I've ever traveled on so little sleep. This is also my first 12-hour layover somewhere. One of the thin...
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Too Many Choices

So I decided to do this amazing thing and visit 35 countries since I'm 35 years old. I thought this would be super exciting. The number of places I could go. The things I could do, the things I would do that change me. The things that would help me grow. The person I could/will become because of this. The possibilities seem endless. And here is the...
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Sunrise

On my flight from Edmonton to Toronto in January, I found myself looking out the window over the wings of the plane and watching the sunrise. On most of my flights I tend to watch TV or read a book, but this flight didn't have TVs and I wasn't in the mood to read at 7 am. So, I found myself looking out the window as the sun slowly came over the win...
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I’m 35, not Unhappy and Unfulfilled, Thanks.

We live in this world now that punishes people (women) by judging them if they don't live up to the "normal" standards of society's version of happiness. If you're over the age of 30 and you're not married or have chosen to not have kids the world stops to judge you and give you "advice" on how to be happy. "How can you be happy, you're not with an...
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A Ride and A Realization

I used to love roller coasters. I used to love the sense of flying you would get as you would speed down the hills and go upside down on the loops of the fastest, biggest coasters we have in North America. I loved the speed. I loved the anticipation of not knowing what loop or turn was coming up next. I loved the banged up knees you would get on ol...
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Love, Distance and Chosen Family

I have made a lot of changes over the last year in my life. I closed up a business that I had barely started. I sold almost everything I owned. I packed up my life and moved across the country. I've changed how I take care of myself. I eat better, I exercise, and I take vitamins. The person I am today feels so far removed from the person I was just...
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