I've been sick this week and have been feeling bad about it because I've gotten nothing done. Today was the first day this week I've felt like getting out of bed. I was going to write a post about how I haven't posted anything for a while and I should really do a better job at that, but as I was sitting down to write this, I realized…….
I'm not sorry because people get sick. Life happens and sometimes things fall to the wayside when it does. For me, the last few weeks have been a mix of life, love, and other complications and I just couldn't bring myself to sit down and write anything. I'd been feeling bad about that until today.
Today I remembered a conversation I had with a friend a few months ago. I'd been staying at her house for a few days and basically spent 24/7 with her. I've known her for years and we know each other fairly well so after a few hours she turned to me and basically told to "stop apologizing!"
You see I have this habit of apologizing for things (even if they are not my fault). It's a habit I've had since I was a child. If something is bad news or something doesn't work out in a good way, even when I've had nothing to do with the outcome, I apologize. I of course also apologize for things that are my fault, but her point was that I do this far too often when it's not necessary.
So today I'm choosing to own my actions. I'm choosing to be okay with it. I have not been posting as often as I should. I know that. I also know that I'm doing the best I can right now and that's all that matters. I'm no longer going to apologize for being human. We all have days where we can't do everything we should. We all have days where we would rather not do what needs to be done. These things don't make us less valuable. It doesn't make us less loving, fun or interesting. In fact, I think the things that make us human make us more interesting, more lovable and in some cases more fun to be with.
So today I choose to own my humanness (I'm not sure that's the right word but I'm going with it). Today I'm choosing to embrace who I am, good, bad and ugly. Frankly, I don't want to be anyone else. I love who I am and in order to fully love who I am I need to embrace the parts of me that may not be perfect. The parts of me that maybe the world doesn't want to see, the parts of myself that may be unflattering. These things make me who I am!
So my challenge to everyone reading this is to do the same. Love yourself, flaws and all. Because we're all human and we all deserve to be loved and love ourselves, flaws and all.