Wow, I don't even have the words. When I started podcasting in November of 2016, I didn't think it would last more than a few episodes. Honestly, back then, I thought no one would want to hear what I had to say. Like many of you, I didn't think I had a story worth telling. I saw no reason why anyone would want to hear me talk about my experience or my knowledge. I didn't have a lot of self-confidence (if you know me, you know that isn't the case anymore). I was worried about how I would sound on the recording, and frankly, I thought people might pick apart all my flaws. It scared the hell out of me.
Thankfully I had some very loving and knowledgable people who said this was something I needed to do. The world needed to hear from me in my own words. They told me I could help people like myself by merely having a podcast. It seemed silly at the time, but I thought it meant I should do it because I was terrified of it.
I had started living my life by the philosophy that "if it scares you, you should do it. It will help you grow." so I took that approach to podcasting. When I sat down to record my first episode, I had no idea what I was doing. Thankfully I had a friend (shout out to Lou Mongello of WDW Radio) who walked me through the basics. I sat down in front of my laptop and just started talking. At the time, I had no idea if I would post it for the world to hear or not. I just knew I needed to start somewhere, and moving outside of my comfort zone was an excellent way to start. You can go back and listen to that first episode here (https://podcasts.apple.com/ca/podcast/chasinghappiness/id1178333959?mt=2
)if you're curious.
In the beginning, I wasn't consistent with episodes. In 2016 I only did two episodes. The first was Nov, and then the last was in Dec of that year. 2017 wasn't much better. That whole year I only did five episodes. In 2018 I started to try to become more comfortable with it. I recorded and posted ten episodes (I hadn't made it to one each month, but I had aimed for it). 2019 was when I started to become more comfortable and consistent with podcasting. That year I released 30 episodes of the podcast. I knew I wanted to work towards having a short podcast (around 10-15 minutes once a week), but I had found it challenging to keep up with while doing a 9-5 job.
Then came New Years. As someone who doesn't make resolutions, I knew that I didn't want to have one for this, but I did promise myself I would try to get out double the episodes as I had done in 2019. That meant I needed to do 60 episodes for 2020, which would have been crazy since there are only 52 weeks in a year. However, I wanted to have a goal to work towards for the podcast. That means for 2020, I needed to have 52 episodes. This week marks episode 27 of those 52. This means I will fall a little short this year as there will only be 45 episodes approximately by the end of the year.
This, however, isn't a failure, in my opinion. The number of episodes is more than I had the year before. The quality of the podcast has improved. I've become so comfortable doing it now that on weeks when I don't record (because I have recorded several episodes ahead of time), it seems strange not to be doing it.
Podcasting has become an excellent excuse for me to educate myself about issues I'm not fully informed on. It's become a place to share what I've learned through my education and my journey. It's a place for me to continue my journey of self-exploration, personal growth and change. A place where I get to interview interesting people. A place where I hear great advice and can share that with you. A place where beautiful stories can be told to help us all learn and grow.
Thank you for being apart of this journey with me for coming back week after week to listen to the podcasts. 2121 will mark 100 episodes and hopefully 52 episodes for the year.